Still trying to forget I ever went here

Staff attempted to frame me for an incident (which I was proven innocent) and tried to get me arrested. Staff lacked empathy. Staff always said "you're lucky you didn't end up in a youth correctional facility". Staff always stated that I dreamt too big and had too high hopes. I proved them wrong. The "education room" is nothing but a storage area which I (using online learning) was never allowed to study in. The computer where I did my online learning was in the middle of a busy corridor where whenever I sat to study, the staff would stand with the front door open allowing me to freeze (despite me requesting them close the door, me closing the door and them reopening it and me putting on many layers of clothing). Originally stated in a meeting about me paying practice rent to the home each week that I'd get it back once I left the home but then went back on what they said, stating that they never said anything of the sort. As a warning, when you are told that you can decorate your bedroom anyway you like, that excludes you drawing art on your walls (I only got told this when I was already moving out. I was told off for it) If you don't like spiders, this place has many, HUGE ones. There is an obvious and horrid smell of damp/mould in the staircase. My bedroom only had single glazed windows which had mould in the corners. In the middle of nowhere. Closest bus stop is down a bending road with no paths with trees on either side which was a road known for accidents. Staff do not take you out places (except for very rare occasions) if you're above 16 (you are expected to travel everywhere on your own). You must be in your bedroom by 9.30pm no matter how old you are. I always ate in my bedroom to avoid confrontations with staff downstairs (then I would get told off for bringing food upstairs). On my 18th they gave me money (great!) however I needed to bring them back a receipt for everything I bought with it so I couldn't go out drinking or you know be 18. They often entered my bedroom without knocking. No baths or showers after 9.30pm. Had a psychologist who for the first time in my life was helping me (great!). The moment he started helping me, they cut his funding. There were many more things which at some point, when my life is more steady, I will be taking action upon but until then my brain can only recite these happenings. Since the day I left, I've been working on trying to forget I was ever there. This place was said to help people, children going through a rough patch but it made me worse. I now suffer BPD not solely from this but it definitely was a huge contributing factor in it. I have nightmares that i'm still there. I struggle to know when I'm dreaming and when I'm awake. Before I went there, I always knew. I don't recommend this place to anyone.

Rose Kida - 17/09/2018 | report this review